Feeling a disconnect from society,friends and family, I struggled to stand on solid ground. I believe the suicidal mindset facilitates the feeling you are all alone in the world. I could be surrounded by people and feel absolutely alone. Whatever is imprinted in the subconscious mind acts as a tuning fork. All circumstances and people supporting the beliefs held in the subconscience are presented to you. I was able to rewire my brain and imprint my subconscience with an alternate plan.