This is my attempt to support and possibly entertain those of you in the process of questioning your validity as a human being facing suicide and/or a spiritual awakening.. I truly believe we all have the capacity to endure great challenges and struggles throughout our lives. I also believe that each of us with varying degrees of tolerance may quite possibly find ourselves at a crossroads. My crossroad arrival occurred in January of 2013 like a flickering neon sign. I found myself completely underwater, drowning in an endless sea of anguish and fear.